Ignis Fatuus

It has occurred to me that there is no such thing as the absence of darkness without the presence of light & there is no brightness but in an absence of darkness. Only one in our life is a naturally occurring phenomenon. If we are in darkness it is only because we've turned out the light, turned away from the light.

I remember in hindsight extinguishing lights. I remember how second by second my vision blurred & illusions of fire appeared where they were not. I watched in horror as they were carried away by the wind or the rain in the blink of an eye, & I was left, seemingly alone in the darkness. But, as we all know (or at least, we should), we are never alone & in time, I opened my eyes again & the light shone just as brightly as ever.

So what happened to me, in that time of frailty? What was it that snuffed out the guide to my path? It was me, always me. No one can force such a thing upon anyone else. It was all my own doing. I turned Him away for my anger, but despite all this He has remembered me & His hand is outstretched still. For this I am grateful & determined never to forget...