Belated Resolution

Confession: It's been almost ten years since my biological clock started ticking. It started one day when a four year old boy asked me if I was a mommy. "No," I said, "but why do you ask?" "Because, Miss Jennifer, you look like a mommy." It was that very moment that I realized motherhood was the aspiration of my life.

Now, don't jump to conclusions here. I'm not pregnant...yet. My health has not been such this last year that my body is in any shape to bare a child at present. Already I've had to postpone my graduation another semester and reduce my course-load by half just to be able keep up with life during illness, but it is my most fervent prayer & desire that this too shall pass, at least in a big enough proportion to allow my aspiration to become a reality.

It seems like every day I find out another friend is pregnant or has adopted another child, and my heart races in the anticipation that soon it will be my turn. Therefore, my single resolution for this year is to see my health returned. Somewhere in the heavens, there is a spirit that depends on it, and I cannot let them down.