Jumping through Hoops

Today was…very difficult. After working my tail off for 2 years, losing 65 lbs and feeling confident & healthy for the first time in my life, genetics set in. I am insulin resistant. Translation - I’m heading on a fast train to diabetes & heart disease like so many of the people I love did before me. Tonight I went to the Tumble gym with my FHE group & saw my life flash before my eyes. Everything just came crashing down with a big thud.

I wanted so badly to be the one to break the cycle. I wanted so badly for this particular gene to pass me by. I wanted so badly to avoiding being at the bottom of the pecking order, but this IS the hand I have been dealt, so after a tear-filled evening of becoming accustomed to this news which will effect me for the rest of my life, I’m going to lie down & rest my exhausted & dehydrated body determined to wake up refreshed & ready to make the best of what I’ve got. I am not without comfort.