If you were to ask me if I believe in love at first sight, I would say "Most certainly," but in typical Jenny fashion, elaboration would be necessary. The first time I looked at Aaron, did I love him? Yes, I did. Not as anything more than a funny boy who could make his "innie" belly button into an "outie," and maybe as a kindred spirit of humor, but I did love him. However, when I speak of love at first sight, I'm not really referring to this first superficial encounter. I'm speaking of the first time I truly saw Aaron. You see, as the wise Helen Keller once told me, there is most definitely a difference between sight & vision. Sight is nothing more than a bodily function. Vision is an ability, a response to one's sight, but not just any response. Vision is a response to seeing beyond appearance into the true form of an object or entity. Vision can still be skewed if perception is not all-encompassing, but almost always, vision is beautiful. The first time I truly saw Aaron, that is what I saw, a beautiful soul full of love & passion, & goodness. I am not saying my vision bypassed reality. I was not blind to Aaron's humanity nor was I deluded enough to think that my humanity & his alike would not at least occasionally skew our vision, but I am saying that at the first moment I truly saw Aaron & every moment since, I have believed in that vision. I have trusted in the goodness of his soul & the depth of his love. The first 2 years of our marriage has not been without trial. It has not been perfect or anywhere close to ideal, but despite our multitude of trials, I don't regret for a second running off to Vegas on that fateful Monday night. I do not regret looking past Aaron's humanity into the goodness of his soul, because as I suspected, even in the darkest of moments, the brilliancy of his goodness has shined through his humanity.
Happy Anniversary, My Love. Here's to forever.
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