With my health going more downhill by the day, our move to Washington stands as a solidified effort to let my body heal. Until I am in a place physically & emotionally where I can be consistent in my efforts, I'll be taking a break from school & work. I have the most amazing husband in the world for being understanding & supportive of such a difficult decision which has been & I'm pretty sure ever will be one of the most difficult decisions we'll have to make in our marriage.
I'm not an idle person. I've never been a slacker & at heart I certainly still am not. I suppose, though, that I really am not being idle per-say. I'm just focusing my efforts completely on self-improvement so that one day, hopefully soon (although that term is highly relative), I'll be in a position again to focus them elsewhere.
I'll be working during this respite to lose weight (100lbs+ is the ultimate goal), improve my health, increase my energy & stamina, & to finally get to the root of my medical conditions so that I can be treated properly. I don't want to say that I've already started my "diet" because this is not a "diet." It is a longterm lifestyle change, one that will consist of shunning all habits that negatively effect my physical, mental, and spiritual health & implementing (or re-implementing, as the case may be) habits which benefit those aspects of my life. I will be tracking my progress & reporting it for accountability purposes.
The work has already begun.
2 comments:
Taking time for yourself is not being lazy in any way, shape, or form. We Mormon women need to get this out of our heads! I know it will be a struggle for you to not be runningrunningrunning with school and work, but I think you will always be grateful for the time you spent allowing yourself to heal in all the right ways. Good luck with all of your goals and know that your former VT loves you! :)
Thanks, Richelle! I needed that. It's not just self pressure I'm dealing with here. I've had so many questions of "when exactly are you going back to school & work?" & comments of "you've worked so hard to get your degree. It's a shame you're giving up now." I can't help but start to feel like maybe I am giving up, but then I remember how long I've struggled to keep going pace when I'm completely worn out & I feel ok with my decision again.
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